tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35011209.post3891123357447816942..comments2023-04-23T12:45:31.897+12:00Comments on Chaos Marxism: No, not DisneylandDoloras LaPichohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15406903235156602127noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35011209.post-20639878445108748722010-06-02T10:49:08.457+12:002010-06-02T10:49:08.457+12:00My epiphanies come after alcohol binges while I am...My epiphanies come after alcohol binges while I am sifting through the mental drawer where Precious Observations are kept. During these; my disposition shifts from introspective to extrospective (World is grimy and creaky), my simulation-generating esteem-hungry Self Substitute dies, I am set free from anxiety-sickness and dread (fingers uncurl, heartbeat slows, possessed by semi-unwanted desire to hug, nuzzle, stroke, and otherwise sooth everyone.)<br /><br />God, I so need one now. <br /><br />Instead, Nick Drake, whoop whoop. <br /><br />http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2JjJPDz3EEMattRhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10240275090095185221noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35011209.post-42412042540388153912010-05-26T06:06:50.037+12:002010-05-26T06:06:50.037+12:00Thanks for this post. I can especially relate to y...Thanks for this post. I can especially relate to your description of the nafs, ultimately this is what everybody's nafs is doing, replaying the same toxic drama(s) encoded in us since childhood (or Original Sin, or the bad karma generated over inumerable kalpas, etc...)<br /><br />Don't get lost and depressed. Like you said, the Kingdom is always there, whether we realize it or not. Our most immediate task is just to realize it, moment by moment, whether through the zhikr of the Sufis or the zuowang ("sitting forgetting") of the Taoists or by any other means by which we can open the hand that grasps on to illusion. There can be a lot of backsliding along the spiritual path, the trick is to take it moment by moment...harder than it sounds, of course, but at the same time easier since it gives you something concrete --- this moment! ---- to start with.Unknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14251202401457702382noreply@blogger.com