07 November 2009

I feel I owe you guys an explanation.

The last month or two I've been desperately (and I belive that's the correct adverb here) engaging in the Greater Work, attempting to strip away whole layers of my personality, so as to facilitate the merging with the emerging implicate order of the New Aeon which I keep talking about here.

It's extremely difficult. I am actually trapped, at the moment, by massive feelings of shame and personal inadequacy, based on experiences in my past which will be of no interest to you. Oh, and I've been reading a lot of Phil Dick. That never does wonders for one's grasp of reality.

But, the upshot is that I don't think I have anything to say I ain't said before ("I've bled all I can, I won't bleed no more...") It may well be that my work right here is done. It may well be that this blog now contains all the information which is going to come out of the Chaos Marxist meme - or rather, out of my consciousness on the basis of that meme. I wonder whether any other "social gnostic" activist will pick up the ball and run with it. And I wonder whether I will ever find ways to turn these ideas into action.

I've said previously that all the best stuff on this blog comes from "somewhere else" - that is, it is inspired literature, written in the voice of someone or something far more powerful and wise than Doloras. No, I haven't seen any pink light, and no, my cats haven't died of brain tumours.

In a sense, the essential problem (as the Muslims know well) is forgetfulness. Once you're up to your ass in alligators, it's difficult to remember that you were going to drain the swamp. Once you're in the Black Iron Prison, the MACHINE, the inferior creation of the Demiurge, exploitative class society, the Real World of Horrible Jobs, it seems that everything that you've ever experienced which suggests that this is not, in fact, real was just a happy dream of some sort.

2 comments:

  1. you've provided plenty of political and spiritual inspiration to me in absentia. not only do I think you shouldn't apologize, I'm glad that you haven't posted any more content... I've barely even scratched the surface of what you've posted thus far.


    I strongly suggest that you read

    http://ctheory.net/articles.aspx?id=614

    something something reality tunnels

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  2. Yeah, I actually didn't understand that article at all. It looked like pretty much any interchangeable piece of cyber-"theory" written between 1992 and now. I really have limited patience for the kind of writing which deliberately makes itself difficult, seeking to turn critical theory into hermetic discourse than a red-hot viral meme.

    But your support is humbling and appreciated, and thank you for taking the time to express it. Let me know what you think.

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